Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Ice Cream

I love ice cream... though I am chubby.. I enjoy eating with my love ones.

I tend to control ... eat maybe once a while...

When I fell in love, I ate more with him. :)

I remember the place where we first met, he brought me to have Tiramisu Ice Cream which is my favorite. From then on, we usually had dessert after our western dinner.

Those were the happy moments we had and my face went so round and round...

That particular day when we sat down and talked about our change of plan and future, we were at the same ice cream shop. That afternoon, the ice cream was tasteless to me. My heart was aching. We didn't share the ice cream, we were talking and talking, and both were sad.

After some time of depression, I returned to my brother's home, who used to be my hero, loves to take care of me and literally feeding me or "fathering" me since small.

Over the phone, he knew my weak condition, " Do you want to eat anything? I will bring home in a short while?" I replied in a still small voice, "nah, It's ok, I am fine..."

He brought home ice cream.

This is the thing that he knew and I sensed he knows his sister will feel comfortable and enjoy...

I was touched...

Monday, November 9, 2009

Sweet Hours this evening

I had a very good moment with mom this evening.

She prepared me my favourite dishes, called me when I was on my way back.

When I was a teenager, I used to fight with her, talked back to her, slammed my bedroom door whenever she yelled at me...

I always thought mom was too harsh on me or she never understood me.

As I grew up, I learnt to communicate with her. Though there were times we disagree on certain issues of life, I chose to keep quiet. I remember once we disagreed on an important issue, I found myself so rejected and misunderstood, I stopped my car and left her in the restaurant with family, I dashed off and never went home again.

When I was on my way back to KL, my eyes filled with tears. I counted my blessings in my life.

I was mom's youngest kid, I used to get lots of attention from her. I was the apple of her eyes. She was so proud of my academic study, my performances on stage, my speeches in public event as a kid. She lost her focus when our family went through a crisis, she was under great stress and difficulty; that was the time we couldn't communicate anymore.

It took me months/years to go back and see her. She finally accepts me as who I am and reaches out to me.

I am touched. I wanna love her and dad more and more....

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

The Right Path

There are moments when I feel completely lonely and helpless; these are the moments I usually quiet down myself and pray to God.

I come to a turning point of my life. There is a path ahead of me which seems wide and easy for me to walk and reach my destiny. However, there are some stumbling blocks and traps along the way, which could endanger me if I make the wrong choice.

Life is not a bed of roses. I agree.
I need God's wisdom and guidance to finish the walk along the right path in order to accomplish my heart desire and dream which He has given me on earth.
I know I am not alone for I remember He is always there carrying me and ready to bless me if I have ever asked.

Friday, October 2, 2009


My mind is too active for this hour. 3:48A.M.

Hard to sleep.. Keep thinking of my lesson plans, business plans, personal plans & etc.

I am always surrounded by kids and teenagers. I love to look into the eyes of the children, especially. They are so naive but beautiful. Their eyes tell you wonders, awaiting fun moments with you, believe in everything you say, show you frustration whenever they are doubtful. You just know them by looking into their eyes.

I remember once I had these beautiful plain eyes. I have lost them. My eyes learnt to hide my inner feelings. I am able to wear an invisible mask to protect myself from getting hurt. As I grow older, I become vulnerable.

Jesus said, " Those with childlike faith will inherit the kingdom of God."

Oh yeah, I am God's child, God's beloved daughter. He accepts me as who I am. I know He loves me to be myself, awaiting fun moments with Him, believe in everything He says, show Him my frus whenever I am doubtful and weak. I know He is there whenever I call upon Him.

A pure heart, this is what I long for. In the midst of my busy life, I would like to enjoy the quiet moment with Him, dwelling in His peaceful presence.

I think my heart will soon be revived, slowly my eyes will shine....

Monday, September 28, 2009

Is my life still beautiful?

Is life still beautiful without a lover?

Is life still complete without a spouse?

I guess the answer is YES to the above questions. Life is still beautiful and complete when you have a healthy mindset and a grateful heart.

Count your blessings, count what you have in life; not what you don't have in life.

Let's live unselfishly. Don't ask how much you receive from others, but ask how much you will give to those who live, who work around you. Let's live a lifetime of caring about people, of learning about them, listening to them, spending time , and paying attention.

"What if it had been me? How many people could I reslistically count on to bust a gut to help me out if I'd called them at 3 a.m.?"

I would say 15...

These are the people whom I really care and invest my time, my love, my effort...and I know that I know I can always count on them.

Let's live a life of asking what you can do for someone else. :)

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Man & Woman

When a man loves a woman, he promises her heaven and earth.
When a man marries a woman, he delays every promise he has said.

When a woman loves a man, she seems understanding and thoughtful in whatever she does for him.
When a woman is married to a man, she seems demanding and calculating all the faults that her husband has made.

When a man is trying to tackle a woman, he sees all the beautiful side she has, and thinks that they both are so compatible.
When a man marries a woman, he sees all the differences between them and wonder why they are together.

When a woman loves a man, she tries different cooking recipe to please him and serve him.
When a woman is married to a man, she cooks him only the menu she thinks it's easy.

When a man hears a woman says, " I love the way you care for me", (which actually means, " I really appreciate your thoughtfulness."); the man thinks that this is the hint for him to have more advanced physical contact towards her.
When a man hears his wife says, " Dear, when are we going to have babies?" The man will then react sensitively to avoid such issue.

When a woman hears a man says, " You are so special in my eyes."; the woman thinks that she is the only woman whom he has his eyes on.
When a woman hears her husband says, "Miss Ellen looks beautiful today."; the woman jumps up and down, finds it so hard to accept the truth.

When a man loves a woman, he shares all his little stories in life with her, to get her admiration and praises.
When a man marries a woman, he hides all his failures and keeps them to himself, to avoid her judgement.

When a woman loves a man, she is shy to tell him more about herself, so to get him more curious and interested in her private life
When a woman is married to a man, she can't wait to tell him that the neighbor's cat just died, the ceiling light is not working, the toilet bowl is stuck!

God made us to be beautiful creation on earth and we share the same image as He has.
Although man and woman are different, we have the same common goal, is to glorify Him and to praise Him as long as we live on earth. Relationship between man and woman is a beautiful combination when 2 are in 1.
G=Good communication skill,
A=Accepting one another,
T=Triumph over trials,
E=Everlasting love

Indeed, it is a GATE way to a heavenly-relationship. :)

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Be a good steward of own finance

I had a fresh awakening these past days. How to be a wise spender? or let me rephrase it, How to be a good steward for God to manage my own finance, my talent?

I got very good tips from friends who are very wise and successful in their career. They are able to spend happily and save happily for their good future.

Good suggestion which I find it is very useful:-

60% of our income should be spent on our daily necessities, for eg: clothing, meals, transportation, housing etc.

10% of our income should be invested on insurance and financial securities.

10% of our income for family responsibilities

20% of our income should be saved for our retirement fund.

Good point: we shoud have cash saving which could last for 3-6 months of expenditure, to secure our rainy days, if we are jobless.


I have learnt a lot...